A New Direction

 Old pic with no relevance to this post, but I just wanted some sunshine :)

Weather changes. Jobs change. Interests change. Everything changes. Change can be good. Change can be bad. Change is ahead for me, again. Hopefully this is a good change.

After several months of debate back and forth, I've decided (with Brad's support, of course) to sign up to be a LuLaRoe consultant. I'm up to 50 pieces in my wardrobe, simply out of pure love for the product. As I've posted about before, I am obsessed with this clothing line. I've never had such a passion for the clothes I wear before. I pick out a piece of LuLaRoe (or two) to wear nearly every single day. And up until last night, I didn't have any purpose other than that the clothes make me feel good about myself. Given all of these feelings, I've thought hard about whether to be a consultant for several months. I've even had elaborate dreams about setting up my own business. My concerns have always been time and financial. However after lots of discussion with the woman who turned me on to these clothes, with friends and with family, this does make sense for me/us at this time. While this will be my business, it will include involvement from Brad (especially on the finance side), so we had to be in full agreement. Edited to add here - I'll still have my full time job too, so Brad will also need to be involved because this will take lots of time at night and on weekends.

I'm only just starting the setup process and will share more details as I have them, but if you are interested then I hope you'll follow me as I launch. And if not, I promise I won't be overwhelming the blog here with posts about LuLaRoe. (Most likely just a note on where to find me and a link in my sidebar). That's not the purpose of this blog.

Which brings me to the next change, and that involves me being honest here. I've always tried to be open and honest on this blog. I may not share every little thing that crosses my mind (because, let's face it, I've got anxiety problems that you all don't want to hear about routinely), but I do try to express how I feel as honestly as I can.

Last year my posting on this blog was lacking, big time. I kept thinking it was because I didn't have enough time. I'd been reading, so I didn't have time to craft. The issue wasn't time though. It was desire. When given the choice between crafting for the blog or reading...I chose reading. Because it made me happy.

This year I put up a blog schedule plan in hopes it would help me get back to regular crafting and blogging. For the most part I kept up with it...for 5 weeks. You'll note there was no digi page post yesterday. I sat in front of my Mac on Thursday night for two hours trying to find a digital template I wanted to use with a few older photos I thought would be nice to scrap. I tried so hard. The idea that I was "letting the blog down" was killing me. In the end it got late and I just gave up.

It's not that I don't want to craft. And it's not that I don't want to blog. I still LOVE making handmade cards. I love stamping and crafting. I love memory keeping. I love sharing my work here. I think what I don't love? Is feeling like I have to do it on a certain schedule, or because I have to post it on my blog to keep this blog active. That is NOT fun. I should post here because I want to, not because I feel like I have to. No other social platform out there makes me feel as tied down as this blog, and I am not sure why that is. I didn't start this blog 5 years ago for anything other than a place to write my thoughts about how much pregnancy sucks and share pictures of my new son with my friends. It evolved when I fell hardcore into Project Life and then I felt like I had to keep up with it.

I have said it before and will continue to say that I truly appreciate all the people who DO read this blog regularly and have stuck with me through a very inactive year last year. You guys are awesome and thank you for putting up with my crap.

But I need to take a step back. I'm not quitting the blog. I'm just not going to force myself to post anymore just to keep active. (You guys can subscribe via email or follow Facebook or Instagram if you want to be notified of posts). I am still making cards, I'm still working on my wedding album, and I'm still going to do my digital 2016 Project Life book. But I'm going to go back to posting when I want to share something with my friends and readers. The whole blog schedule thing is off the table. I admit defeat.

Right now...I'm REALLY into LLR. And life's too short to not be doing what you enjoy, even if what you enjoy is a phase that eventually changes into something else. Right now this is my new focus, so I'm embracing the changes that will come along with it while it's fun and enjoyable for me. When it isn't anymore, then there will always be something else. We should all be doing what we actually enjoy, not what we feel we should enjoy.

Again, thank you guys for being there and being awesome.