Small update

I've got an appointment tomorrow morning, so we'll see. I'm a little overwhelmed on where to begin with her but I think she'll guide me. I just feel like there is so much stuff I need to inform her of for her to be able to diagnose me. Like, where do I start? I'm sure it'll be ok, just a little nervous.

I'm also nervous about her possibly recommending medication. I would rather fix my problems with therapy and hard work on my part than with medication. But maybe I do need something. I don't know. I used to be on Paxil for anxiety, and withdrawing from it (twice) was awful. And I hear things about anti-depressant drugs causing suicidal thoughts (though I would hope I would never feel that way - again, wayyyy too afraid of death).

Anyway, tomorrow starts my journey. 


  1. I use a combination of medicine and therapy sessions and that seems to work for me. Good luck. Sometimes depression is genetic. Find out if anyone in your family (blood relatives) also has depression. I was amazed to find out after my diagnosis that depression is rampant in my family but no one talked about it.

  2. Thanks, Karen. I don't know of depression in my family but there is definitely anxiety issues.

  3. Good luck! I think (and hope!) she'll be receptive to your wanting to try non-medication methods first. I know that the best non-med treatment of depression is exercise! :-) So, that's something!

    I always thought about seeing a therapist myself (just about food/esteem/anxiety issues) but I never liked the idea of talking to strangers :-) But I've been told that if they're good at what they do (and I imagine yours will be!) that they'll make you feel very comfortable.
    So, I hope that is true for you. Just be you, be honest, and speak freely!
    And be proud of yourself for taking such a big step!

  4. You know I've been through this, you can talk to me any time, I'm here for you.

  5. I know, thanks Laura. I appreciate that.

  6. I had the EXACT same feelings about starting therapy [and soon after, medication]. Now, I wish I had a therapist back at age 5 haha!