Today is not so great. I overdid it yesterday, big time, and today I'm paying for it. I'm sore, and tired, and an emotional MESS. I've cried four times today, including bursting into tears in front of the nurse at the doctor's office because she told me to let Brad be doing most of the work right now. I didn't want her thinking he wasn't, because he IS. He's doing practically everything. My soreness comes from staying up way too long, and all the getting up and down to feed/change Austin. I've learned it's hard for me to get down into the cradle so we're swapping to the pack & play today, which is higher up at least. But I just feel so bad, I know Brad is tired too and I feel like I want him to be able to rest too.

They put me on some blood pressure meds. Labetalol. I'm not happy at all about it. I do NOT want to be taking blood pressure medication. I don't care how rare the serious side effects are, they freak me out. So I cried about that.

It's just...not a good day.


  1. sending hugs and love your way!!! <3

  2. I'm sorry about your crappy day :-( And I hope you're able to get some rest and have a better day tomorrow. Its ok to be freaked out by being on the meds, but being on the meds is healthier and safer for you than not.

    Don't forget Grandma Pat is on call at all times :-) If you ever need her during the day, so maybe you and Brad can both rest together.

    And lastly, don't be ashamed to break down and cry! You're under a lot of stress in every way possible. Take it a day at a time and find the little blessings in those quiet moments with your new little boy :-) and it will get better and easier and more fun in no time!