Afraid

Now that I'm sitting here, the night before my scheduled induction, I'm suddenly really, really scared.

Even more reason I wish I went into labor naturally. I've been excited for any little change for weeks, and I keep waiting for my water to break or for a painful contraction. If I was just thrown into labor, I wouldn't be sitting here dwelling on what's about to happen. But having it scheduled gives me time to think, and it's not good.

I keep worrying now that something might go wrong. That baby or I might not survive (pretty ridiculous, I know, I'm sure we'll both be fine). I am thinking about how much it's going to HURT.

I took Tylenol PM so I can make sure I get some sleep tonight. The past two nights I've been awake for hours with anxiety.

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  1. Good luck hon! Try to focus on the fact that you CAN do it. I went into labour really positively and thought to myself that I definitely could handle the pain, and I did. I don't know if the pain just wasn't that bad or if it was a mind-over-matter kind of thing, but I believe that if you go in thinking it'll hurt, it'll hurt bad.

    I'll be thinking of you! Hope it all goes well and I can't wait to hear about it and see pictures of your little man! :)

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