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I've been feeling pretty down, pretty bad about myself lately. Appearance-wise, I feel disgusting. My stomach is covered in hair, and I have pimples all over my neck and shoulders, and they are SO gross. I can't understand why on earth Brad still wants to fool around with me, I just feel like I'm so insanely nasty. Internet wise, I keep causing drama without intending to, and have been forced to distance myself from a group of people I once considered close friends. (though it sounds like only 3 or 4 of them even still like me so that's probably for the best). I still don't understand what happened with Kelly's wedding or my friendship with her, and I don't think I ever will. And I feel so badly about complaining about being pregnant all the time because I know there are so many people out there that wish they were in my shoes.

Just trying to keep as positive as I can, when I am feeling good. Heck, I'm even laughing about throwing up all day long. (I swear, I am so happy to not feel nauseous all day that I'll take the puking).

Ah well, such is life.

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  1. Well, I am just going to regurgitate (pun intended!) the things I've been saying...

    Don't ever feel bad for the way you feel. Your emotions are yours and you are entitled to them.

    I know that negativity breeds negativity. So naturally because you feel so crummy physically, it's bound to take a toll on everything else.

    But, like anything, it will go in waves... and hopefully soon it'll be a nice, warm, uplifting wave :-)

    Also, the fact that you said the phrase "Brad still wants to fool around with me" is exactly why Brad still wants to fool around with you. You're adorable :-)
    Fooling aroooound, downtoooown!

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